First, I didn’t know what to write in this blog, so I remained silent for a time and asked the Spirit to lead me. This is the title that came out, and I had to ponder why. And this blog is filled with whys. But the Spirit answers them all by revealing the intention of […]

Forgiveness is a gift for me It sits collecting dust unopened until I’m ready It’s benefits to trust And let the Spirit set me free, keep heart and mind focused on God’s love, stronger than my own through grace, His cornerstone.   Forgiveness is God’s whole embrace We get it and must give the grace […]

Last October I wrote for the first time about having bipolar 2 brain disease, otherwise known as manic depression. Writing about this has become more and more important to me. Why? For three reasons: The older I get the more changes I see in the symptoms and cycles of the illness and how it affects […]

My father had bipolar disease. How do I know? I know because I have bipolar. My father was never diagnosed with manic depression; he was born in 1911 and died in 1982 and at his death had been disabled for about four years from several previous heart attacks and strokes and adult onset diabetes. Growing […]

I’m scheduled for surgery in eleven days. While on the one hand I look forward to it, on the other hand, I am anxious because surgery is extremely serious. I will be “under” for about five hours. Outwardly, I have lots of energy; I’ve been extremely productive over the past couple of weeks. Inside, however, […]

My heart and mind are now at peace through Jesus’ everlasting grace, forgiveness, mercy ever long; God lifts us with His love lifelong.   My guilt and shame He did release by taking in His hands my face and singing me His grace-filled song; God lifts us with His love lifelong.   God’s love for […]

Why does “Our Time” seem so much more adverse, so much more messy so much more disastrous than times we remember in history; those times long before the devastating, deplorable times, the truly heinous times decades ago or the recent past we choose to forget. Instead, we focus on breaking news and current chaos of […]

I wrote this as a Guest Post on Tony Robert’s blog, Delight in Disorder: Divine delight in a disordered world. As I look back on the cycles of bipolar that have tried to steal my life away from me, I am acutely aware of both overt and covert cycles associated with this illness. The overt […]

1.“If you hear My voice and abide in My words, you are truly My disciples; you will know the truth, and that truth will set you free.” (John 8:31-32) These precious days we have on earth, as we scramble to discern the truth from alternative facts, we have an Internal Guide who helps us in this winnowing […]

My Lord is here beside me still; I hear him in the morning trill of songbird love and cadenced calls, the hummingbird clicks musical, sounds my heart fills.   I love the morning hours when I hear the cardinal, the wren, and know God’s looking in my eyes, “Good morning, you’re my treasured prize.” I […]