Category Faith

Forgiving My Father

My father had bipolar disease. How do I know? I know because I have bipolar. My father was never diagnosed with manic depression; he was born in 1911 and died in 1982 and at his death had been disabled for about four years from several previous heart attacks and strokes and adult onset diabetes. Growing […]

God Lifts Us

My heart and mind are now at peace through Jesus’ everlasting grace, forgiveness, mercy ever long; God lifts us with His love lifelong.   My guilt and shame He did release by taking in His hands my face and singing me His grace-filled song; God lifts us with His love lifelong.   God’s love for […]

The Social Cycles of Bipolar and Faith

I wrote this as a Guest Post on Tony Robert’s blog, Delight in Disorder: Divine delight in a disordered world. As I look back on the cycles of bipolar that have tried to steal my life away from me, I am acutely aware of both overt and covert cycles associated with this illness. The overt […]

Three Ways We Know the Truth

1.“If you hear My voice and abide in My words, you are truly My disciples; you will know the truth, and that truth will set you free.” (John 8:31-32) These precious days we have on earth, as we scramble to discern the truth from alternative facts, we have an Internal Guide who helps us in this winnowing […]

God’s Songbirds

My Lord is here beside me still; I hear him in the morning trill of songbird love and cadenced calls, the hummingbird clicks musical, sounds my heart fills.   I love the morning hours when I hear the cardinal, the wren, and know God’s looking in my eyes, “Good morning, you’re my treasured prize.” I […]

God is…

You are the vivid white petal of a cherry blossom, the brilliant yellow of a hibiscus, the deepest pink of a fuchsia bud, the complex crimson of an open rose.   You are the fine, virgin down of a cygnet, The fine dust of a clouded sulphur, the shocking, blush of feathers of a flamingo, […]

A Fearless Moral Inventory, Part 2

My moral indiscretions are countless. Before I was diagnosed with bipolar 2, during the hypomania cycles the decisions I made were reckless. I stumbled often; my choices were folly at best, dangerous at worst. I used drugs, promiscuously engaged in unprotected sex, stole clothing from boutique apparel stores, and for over a year dated a […]

Living in Threes

“No amount of love can cure madness or unblacken one’s dark moods.  Love can help, it can make the pain more bearable, but always one is beholden to medication that may or may not always work and may or may not be bearable.  Madness, on the other hand, most certainly can, and often does kill […]

Yes, It’s Love

As I attempt to determine amidst disorganization how to keep my thoughts on you, Lord, it’s just to you my heart is moored: adoration.   When Satan gains we see no light that’s visible to guide, unite. This circumstance calls for our trust, our patience and our refocused views from God’s sight.   While Jesus […]

Unfolded

Unfold your broken, injured wings and let the Spirit set you free. We’ve all been folded, damaged, cracked yet healing waits a “yes” within.   As voice of Spirit calms and sings, allows you through God’s eyes to see a shining you where nothing’s lacked in order to anew begin.   With this relationship God […]