Sunday Afternoon

©susanirenefox

©susanirenefox

Sunday afternoon

and I am slipping away;

I am holding on by a thread.

 

I stopped for groceries

on my way home from church

and asked a young black man

stocking produce

if I could give him a hug.

He tenderly asked me if I was all right.

 

Weeping is just below the surface.

A cloud of grief is descending

over me

and I don’t know

if I can withstand

the lack of

grace

mercy

love

oxygen.

 

I know Hope exists;

It is in me

and out there

somewhere.

 

Tears come in

fits and starts.

Perhaps I just need to

sob and keen and wail awhile,

allow myself to sink to the floor

and call His name aloud.

 

Perhaps from rain,

growth; then calm

then the sun.

27 comments

  1. The True Light! · ·

    Susan, I’m so sorry to read the words of this post, as they come from your hurting heart! Please do not despair, there is goodness awaiting you, my friend. Lord love and keep you in His arms…

    Steve
    ((hugs!))

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    1. I’m so much better now, Steve. If you read the beginning of the Back to Basics series, you’ll see I turned to prayer and the Gospels for wisdom, hope and peace.

      And I remembered Paul’s encouraging words about our circumstances: “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:13)

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      1. The True Light! · ·

        Glad to hear that Susan! That’s where our hope lays…in the love of God through Christ Jesus.

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  2. […] I wrote Sunday Afternoon I needed to be lifted out of the hopelessness I felt after the horrible week of killing and chaos. […]

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  3. […] I wrote Sunday Afternoon I needed to be lifted out of the hopelessness I felt after the horrible week of killing and chaos. […]

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  4. Indeed.

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  5. Beautiful soul…I understand. My tears are flowing with you…and wish I could give you a hug ❤

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    1. Thank you, Lorrie.
      Sometimes I am simply overwhelmed by the hate, yet I remember my God is Love, and when I surrender to Him, He conquers the fear and unrest in my heart. ❤

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      1. Yes, Susan. I feel the same way. It can hurt so much to be put in that energy which the media is only too happy to report…constantly!! Sometimes …most times…we need to tune that out and keep ourselves surrounded by love ❤

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  6. Beautiful, Susan!

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  7. Huge hugs Susan. That’s what I do when the tears start to flow these days, I just keep uttering His Great Name. I hope you are feeling less sorrowful now. Love, N 🙂 ❤

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  8. Dearest….

    I’ve been out of touch. What goes on? Why are you so distraught? Is it just the state of affairs or is there something more I’m unaware of?

    Your seeking a hug from the young man sounds like something I would do.

    Your words bring so much to mind.

    I’ve had to back away a bit from ‘the front;’ I’m discovering I can pick my battles but not give up the fight. Our sensitive hearts need rest and protection, now and then.

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    1. Just the state of affairs, Kitsy. So much hate and hurt.
      Thanks for writing.

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      1. Time to come about and catch a fair wind. See the post I just put up. Take a deep cleansing breath and exhale all of that bad air. God is still in His heaven and all is playing out as intended. Keep your eyes and mind focused on Christ our Glory, dear. It will be alright.

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      2. Thanks, Kitsy. I did have a deep, long and very good cry last night, calling on Jesus’ name. Went to bed asking our Father to please rain down peace on the hearts of our country. Feeling stronger and more hopeful this morning.

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      3. This onslaught is hard on us sensitive souls but we know where our refuge is and from whence comes our strength. When in weakness, I grope my way to His feet and hunch up close.

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      4. Absolutely. And I felt His tender embrace last evening.

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  9. I am so sorry, you are in such despair Susan. Lord lift her spirits and touch her heart Father. Take her burdens and wrap her in your love.

    Joy to you dear Susan

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    1. Thank you and bless you, dear sweet Tom.

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  10. Hopefully Susan you got the hug you asked for. Sometimes a hug from God is just what we need. I got a big needed one from Him today. The world and my world can be such a mess. Blessings to you.

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    1. Thanks, Mike.

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  11. I get this. We have been hammered from so many places and for so long. But we are still here, and we can still listen for His voice. But some day we will see clearly in his presence.

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    1. I know. Waiting for tomorrow.

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  12. Melissa · ·

    Yes

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  13. it only takes a spark to keep the fire burning…press on..vw

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