Baptism, the enemy and my Protector

It’s been nine years since I took the plunge. Literally.

Nine years ago today I chose to be baptized.

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I didn’t have to. I was already imbued with the Holy Spirit. I had walked into the arms of Jesus the summer before. But I chose to make a public declaration.

That prior summer, I was walking around a lake having a conversation with Him. He was answering some of my questions when suddenly I had an epiphany. And I knew. And He held out His arms and I walked into His embrace. And over the next four years, the enemy went on the attack.

Oh, I didn’t know it was the enemy. Not until many years later.

But here’s what his attack looked like.

My house was robbed just before Thanksgiving.

The pastor who baptized me left the church because of his pornography addiction.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

A year-and-a-half later I was laid off my teaching* job.

The chemo I took for the breast cancer began to wreak havoc with my immune system.

I was struggling to hang onto the next teaching* job I had when our benefits and salaries were cut, and the pastor of the church that owned the school ended his own life because he couldn’t face impending embezzlement charges.

*Both teaching jobs were at Christian schools.

Ah, but I was also rescued.

Although my computer was stolen with all my lesson plans from years of teaching, the parents of my students got together and bought me a new computer for Christmas that year.

While I left that church, I began to dig deeper into the Bible for myself.

After my surgery, the same parents signed up to bring me dinners for a month, collected my laundry, cleaned my house, and organized a fundraising dinner to pay for expenses while I was on unpaid leave for three months. And a secret angel paid my rent for six months.

I moved from the Central Valley, which was at the time the only job open to me, back up to Northern California, where my support system was.

I had taken a teaching job that required a 40-mile commute each way – again, the only one open – and was becoming exhausted. My physical condition was worsening daily. At the end of the year, I was offered a teaching position less than 10 minutes from my apartment.

Incredibly, my doctor put me on permanent disability on Friday morning, and I informed my principal it was my last day – the day before the chaos happened. The following Monday, because the school hadn’t been paying its rent, the teachers walked into locked out classrooms. Apparently, the pastor had been warned three months in advance and didn’t bother to tell anyone. He had stolen money that was meant for teacher salaries and rent and decided not to face his responsibilities.

Other circumstances have occurred since then, and I’m much more aware now of enemy attacks. I’m also much more aware of how the Father works in my life to manifest Himself as Shield, Protector and Rescuer.

I can also more quickly and easily distinguish between an enemy attack and my own foolish choices. Luckily, those become fewer as my crow’s feet deepen.

Thankfully, I have also learned to recognize the voice of my Shepherd. He speaks to me in ways He knows I will hear him.

shining dove with rays on a darkThe Holy Spirit has become my Friend, my Constant Companion, and I have come to trust Him completely. He is the voice of Jesus for me. He helps me understand His words and intent.

He was the One who led me to choose baptism. He was the One who lifted me up through all those attacks. He is the One who continues to light my path in all circumstances. He ensures I’m loved by keeping me tightly wrapped in my Father’s loving embrace.

And nearly ten years after I walked into His arms, He’s still my One and Only.

27 comments

  1. Bless you for sharing such a difficult journey

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    1. Thank you so much, Ros.

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  2. Sister Susan, thank you for sharing such a personal life and yet showing also how the Lord demonstrates His promises fulfilled, “The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD, And He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the LORD upholds him with His hand.” — Psalm 37:23-24.

    I truly believe those who go through situations like this DO grow stronger and deeper in love with our Lord in a very intimate way. I can tell you that Sue and I have been through similar situations as so many who commented probably have. The difference is, we don’t always share it as a way to encourage others in their walk with the Lord!

    God bless you so for this Sis. For those of us who have gone through the “grist mill” so to speak, this is a good reminder of why we love the Lord and His depth of love for each of us!!!

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    1. I think you’re right, Roland. When we go through tough situations, we have a choice. We can either run away from God or tun toward Him. My choice always is to run toward, into His embrace.

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  3. Thank you, Susan for sharing your story. It is beautiful and inspiring.

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    1. So many of us have hurts, tragedies and near misses, Lori. I am humbled by your story, and your courage for sharing it.

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  4. Thank you Susan for sharing. I cried as I read this and they are tears that are thankful tears of the love and voice of Father to His children. God is so amazing and so deeply in love with us that we get to learn the voice of love. Thank you for sharing just a small glimpses of your story. God’s peace to you.

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    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read. Each person who visits and cares enough to comment is now a part of my story. Bless you, and have a peaceful weekend.

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  5. Thank you for sharing your meaningful ten years of walking with the Lord in this beautiful post.

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    1. Your welcome. Resting in Him tonight. Hope you are, too.

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  6. Embracing Jesus and making Him Lord of our life doesn’t mean suffering ends but suffering alone does end. Every evil the enemy uses against is repurposed in Christ to direct our paths as part of completing God’s marvelous plan to free us and His creation from sin and death. It’s not about us, it’s all about Him and in Him all of our needs are met.:0) I loved reading this very personal testimony of Jesus.

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    1. “It’s not about us, it’s all about Him.” You’ve said it in a nutshell. He sets us forward when we say, “I’ll go,” and ensures our protection for His glory.

      Thank you for reading and for your wise comment.

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  7. Thank you for sharing Susan

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    1. You’re welcome, Wally. Thank you for taking the time to read.

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  8. I am crying and you and I have a number of similar events. I am going to a doctor for a probable breast cancer next week. I went through so many of the same experiments. And my husband has asburgers. Thank you so much writing this for today.

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    1. Oh, Susan, you will certainly be in my prayers. If you want to email, please do so. I’d love to “talk” more privately. I’m at fox_susanirene@yahoo.com
      Love and hugs. ❤

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  9. Wonderful, Susan. Always love to hear how we overcome with the our Dear Savior.
    Thank you for sharing.
    cate

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    1. 🙂 Thanks, Cate. The writing of this was actually quite spontaneous. I think I will do more.

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  10. Wonderful testimonia of God’s love and faithfulness. That you show God the glory is a witness to the change God has done in you Susan. Such a blessed encouragement to all of us. Thank you for sharing your walk with Jesus.

    Peace to you my friend

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    1. Blessings to you, Tom. We never know where God will lead us, but we can have confidence He will equip us and walk with us every step of the way.

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  11. Oh yes indeed the devil stays busy and our ALL KNOWING AND ALL POWERFUL God will ask satan “have you considered my good servant “little struggling Christian “?’ It definitely can be a tough and trying time when going through the attacks, BUT if adjust our focus on God and His Word just as you did, we see that at the end of each attack we are stronger, closer and more depended upon Him…then it’s totally be worth it in the long run🤔
    God wants our TOTAL SURRENDER ❤️❤️🎈🤔🙂 Thanks for sharing your story 🙂 And God A Bless you! Keep on keeping on for Him😉🗡🛡

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    1. It was definitely a struggle, but I wasn’t afraid. I kept those Scriptures on “do not fear” first in my mind, especially Exodus 14:14: “God will fight for you; you need only be still.”

      My relationship with Him is stronger than ever. That’s why it’s so important to me to continue to write of His love and grace.

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      1. Yes ma’am Absolutely 😬😬❤️🎈

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